Take heart dear ones, Phill is walking on streets of Gold right now and looking into the eyes of his beloved Savior!

Nicole Cabbell - I never had the opportunity to meet Feather Phill. But in seeing such an immense outpouring of both grief and
love from so many that he touched--HOWEVER briefly--,I envy those of you who did. He seems like such a beautiful, genuine individual to have known. I grieve the loss of this amazing Christian goth, but also rejoice because he has gone home to his first Love, Lord Jesus Christ.  I do look forward to meeting him in Heaven someday. My condolences and prayers go out to the friends and family of Feather Phill.

-Nicole Cabbell


i have kinda been out of the loop but on this day of july 7th of 07 i logged on to christiangoth.com and saw the memorial page to phill. i didn't get to spend much time hanging out with him at the gathering but in the time i had with him i realized how much of a sincere human being he was. the thing i though when i saw him was " wow this guy looks like a Norwegian metal head and the feather is a nice touch" and the first thing i will look for when i pass through the pearly gates is that feather bobbing above the heads of the rest of good and faithful servants. R.I.P. Feather Phill
                                                      Aaron Hamilton

I never even knew Phill...So it may be odd for me to even say anything.. But from what I have read I wish I had...He seemed really cool...And i could tell just by looking at pictures of him he loved God so much...He was happy. I hope i get to meet him in heaven...  Katrina    (thank you Katrina.)

Feather Phil, I remember when I first met you and how you opened up your dorm to me to have a place to sleep. You were an awesome man of God. I pray that you have been truly taken up on Eagles wings  -chris

I remember Phill from the very first gathering we had back in 2004, I thought that hat with the feather was the coolest idea, then to later find out that he was actually called "Feather Phill!" (LOL)  I remember at the second Gathering the night he put that skull on his head and draped the cloak around his own head and shoulders and walked around to everyone with it, funny guy!  what a very very unique wonderful young man of God. I wish with all my heart that I had the friendship with him, that Donna Sheehy had. (But) I got to know Phill a little better after talking to Donna the other day, she filled me in on conversations they had at his very last visit with her. They talked about ChristianGoth.com and my Gothic Bride of Christ ideas and showed him pictures of it, she said he was very interested and looked forward to seeing us all again....May the God of all comfort surround Phill's family and loved ones at this time.  -The Lady Michaela

When Lectra told me, I was shocked. Feather Phil was amazing. I remember one of the first times meeting him after a Bible Study get-together at the church. We all went out to eat at the same restaurant as usual. One of the females stood up, and immediately Phil stood. He showed respect. Respect for all. I got to hang out with him at one of his dorm hang-outs. We played one of those games where you take over sections of the world.....He conquered my land! He had a beautiful heart for all. He worked hard. He always spoke highly of everyone, especially his family. Phil will definitely be missed by many, but I'm happy he's partying his ass off with JESUS now!!!!! 


I first met Phill at the 2005 Christian Goth Gathering in Baltimore, MD. I came by myself and I didn't know anyone there. I felt at home among my Gothic brothers and sisters in Christ, but I wasn’t going to invite myself to dine with them during the first evening. I said goodbye for the moment and turned away to excuse myself from the circle of friends who previously knew each other. I heard a voice call out and say, "Hey! Where are you going off to?! Don't try to be all 'Goth" and think you can eat dinner all by yourself now." I turned around to find Phill smiling at me, arms folded underneath his cloak and looking at me as if he knew he could get away with saying such a comment. I accepted the invitation, and in that one night, became closer to several strangers then I ever thought possible. Many people touched my heart that weekend, and Phill was certainly one of them. My second and last time seeing Phill was at the 2006 March for Life weekend in Washington DC.


-Joyful Mourning


How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him….Do not be surprised, my brothers, if the world hates you. We know that we have passed from death to life, because we love our brothers.  - First John 3:1, 13 & 14 (NIV)


When I first met “Feather Phil” there were so many guys named Phil in Christian goth we had to come up with a way to easily distinguish them, and so
 “Feather”  Phil was born.  Shortly after I announced the First Christian Goth Gathering, Feather Phil sent us this message: 
 “Are there still open spots? I am a student at GWU in DC, and would consider myself a Goth, and I have a relationship with our Lord Jesus Christ.  
 So this sounds very interesting to me. Please let me know more.  A brother in Blood,  Phillip Grosser” 
 After the gathering, he said,  “I was immensely blessed by the conference, and I cannot wait for the next one. 

‘To obey is better than sacrifice
I want more than Sunday and Wednesday nights
Cause if you can't come to Me every day
Then don't bother coming at all
-To Obey is Better than Sacrifice’ – Keith Green   A Blood brother,   Feather Phil 

I told him that I loved Keith Green, and that those were some of my favorite lyrics. 

 Once, when I was struggling to share Christ with a seeking goth, Phil gave me the following advice:

“The key to this is listening intensely.  This is not the kind of intensity that people use to find loopholes in arguments.  No this is the intensity that says, “I find you to be worth my time to listen to.” Show them love in that way, and if they merely want to argue and not listen, that will speak to them more than your best argument.  Try to understand their point of view completely.  Fully listen to them while they speak, don't be thinking things like, “OK well how can I totally smack down that argument they just said?” If words they use are somewhat unclear, and can have different connotations to different people, ask for a thorough explanation as to what it means.  Winning the argument is not always the most important part, but if you are sure to show them that you care about them as a person, they have to walk away from that argument, even if they “won” that seed of “Why did she or he care so much about what I said, and really trying to understand me, not just to smash my arguments, but me as a person?” It will stick.

Hope this helps.  A Blood brother,   Feather Phil”
When I heard the news of Phil’s passing, I shared this with Donna Sheehy: 

It’s very sad news. It’s weird but my first thought was that I wish I had spent more time with him, been more attentive, ya know.”

Donna provided a great deal of comfort to me with these words:

He and I talked about you.  Hehehe    All good things.  I filled him in on your magic and he was looking forward to seeing you at the UU this year.   He thought a lot of you. I think that he would have liked to see you dance.”

“When you get the choice to sit it out or dance…I hope you dance,” – Lee Ann Womack

Phil danced and he helped the rest of us dance too.

Thank you Phil. We’ll miss ya.


David Dellman


      For ourselves we mourn and grieve
      Emptiness of the loss this day
              And for his family we keep and pray
That comfort is bestowed
             His departure tears at us with tears
      Entered the sheep into the fold
                      Rejoice for our brother, weep for our loss

     written by The Saj


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